Hi from Japan! I am here as an annual leave holiday. Honestly, it was more of an escape trip. I was feeling so suffocated at the rigid and mono culture.
Restlessness and Rootlessness, and annual travel
As a TCK, restlessness and rootlessness has been my strong and weak suit. If I am not moving between the country’s, I would be moving my literal home or work.
So I chose Japan for my escape trip destination. It was close, I can understand 40% of what they are saying, and I love Japanese country. Her culture is truly spectacular and makes me wonder how its changing as time goes. This year, I was lucky to observe Matsuri preview program and Memorial day cermemony.
Reminder of my comfort zone
Since I am traveling now, it reminded me of how I have been so far. I was constantly looling for restlessness and trying to feel in my daily life. Now, here I am not wanting to go back to my routine from the non-Japanese life in Osaka, Japan.
I had a great time. Reminder of checking in, not understanding fully, being not familiar to the culture, and relying on to English and Hiragana. It all reminds me of my childhood.
Traveling with my sisters, and another TCK issue emerges
I have 2 younger sisters who are TCK and non-TCK. My youngest sister was too young, yet she has got influenced by my family member. My parents were Korean-expats and my sister (not the youngest) is TCK too.
For my youngest sister, it is her first time traveling outside of Korea. However, she has been diligent on informing us what is happening in Korea and the cat everyday.
After few days, I abruptly told her I prefer leaving behind Korea me only for few days. I wanted to chill out and simply enjoy the day, but she somehow constantly reminded me of the fact I have to go back and she wants some present for some people in Korea.
Here I am, pondering what i should do. My files and datas on my understanding of culture and customs collided. I ended up being me. I decided I will not think about Korea and enjoy the day.
I know why my sister is telling us about Korea. It’s from a good heart. She knows what’s going on. And I know I just want to chill out and enjoy my comfort zone.
Not wanting to go back
And today is my last day in Japan. I hate to go back to Korea. I will have to go back to “me whom everyone expects me to be”. And act like nothing has happened.
I am aware of the fact that Japan is not my home. But I just am not ready to go back yet.